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Posted 1 month ago

Boredom galore

Today has been really boring. Yeah, I have things to do, but I’ve basically did them all. I’ve read up on my hypnosis, finished my essay due this coming thursday, played Osu! and Starcraft, drank tea, talked to some friends, helped some people, did flips, and nyan’ed.

I live a fulfilled life, but it can get a bit boring..

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Posted 4 months ago

Aspiro alla Mediocrita: Maybe this is just me, but...

tessytutu:

I don’t understand the whole “friends with benefits” trend/thing that people seem to be doing these days. I’m not judging people who get involved in that kind of thing, but I just don’t get it.

From what I understand, that type of thing never seems to work out in the end. I know that sex doesn’t…

Imma’ play devil’s advocate.

“Friends with benefits” is the ability for physical stimulation without to worry about the obligation of a serious commitment.
Sex feels good, physically and yes, even emotionally, but the reason relationships such as the FwB are stigmatized is because society states their opinion very clearly — that sex should be reserved for a serious relationship and etc etc.

On the other hand, what is wrong with being able to enjoy the sensation of sexual pleasure without having to worry about what the other may think?

The ability to fool around and unwind without any emotional baggage?! Hell, sounds good to me!

The whole point is to be able to have one’s sexual needs/wants without having to develop or worry about any emotional ties at all. Your FwB wants to stop? Oh, well, find a new one. There really isn’t an emotional side to it, hard to believe, but that is how it functions and why it will continue to function as a type of social option.

I think the important thing is to not have an opinion about it anyway. “Friends with benefits” really shouldn’t (if established correctly) have any downsides, hurts no one, and of course is a private matter in itself. 

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Aspiro alla Mediocrita: I feel like a failure.

tessytutu:

“And I’m under a lot of pressure with this shit. On the one hand, I got people wanting me to be successful and if I’m not then I’m gonna lose everything, and on the other hand I got people who couldn’t give two shits if I make it or not.”

Life can crush you and leave you gasping. You’ll try and work yourself to the bones to find yourself to be very exhausted. What you need is the time to refresh your mind and feel some weight lifted.


Out of all my friends I’m definitely the loser in the bunch. They’re all on their way to getting degrees and big-time careers and I’ll always be seen as the one who never lived up to their potential.

Don’t you feel as if you’re placing words in your head? If you look at your post it has no thoughts at all really about what YOU think. Yes, yes, it is about what you feel, but feelings at time can be blinding and obfuscate your rationality.

Part of the reason for your sluggish mindset is that you are under stress and you need to learn how to handle it in a way that fits yourself. Knowing you for a while, I can say that you don’t handle with stress effectively. There are plenty of books that can teach you to cope with your stress. How to treat it, recognize it, and deter it. I also can help if you feel comfortable with a little hypnotherapy session.

Also…
STOP. THINKING. SO. MUCH!

You have to just shut off sometimes. Be selfish. Take a moment and picture your life as what you think it would be as perfect. Bask in the glory.

Be selfish.

Honestly, if your happiness is dependent upon what others do or think, then you do have a problem. 

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Posted 4 months ago

*Snickers maniacally* Cry about it, cupcake.

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They say we all have our demons…

You’ve come a long way.

You were never a young people. Your ancestors stretch back into the mists, to other times of which I’m not permitted to speak.

They were stupid.
They lacked ambition. Will.

There was no common ground between us.
When you were born, I thought you’d be like the rest, fucking shamelessly under the rain, confining your violence to innocent dominance gestures, rough and tumble.

When you picked up a rock, I smiled.
When I saw her blood on it, I cheered.

Finally, someone was speaking my language.

There were awkward introductions. You’d never seen me before, though I was always there, waiting until your senses developed.

When they drove you off, I followed.
When you came back with fire (no need to thank us for that) and burned them, I praised you while they screamed and cursed.

I made a few suggestions, showed you how to do a better job next time.

I know you felt guilty sometimes, but I helped you get over it.

We collaborated on a few techniques to set your will on the right path.

First of all, you learned how to set yourself apart from weak people.

Honestly, I made only a small suggestion, but you really ran with it. You invented words to keep them low.

Barbarian.
Slave.
Infidel.
Slut.

You made new tools to give those words some bite.

Quite a thing to talk with a spear or cluster bomb, isn’t it?

The weak will always be your burden. I sympathize. They’ve got numbers on their side, but I’m trying to get them to come around to your way of thinking.

Sometimes they get the best of you, make you think you’re in the wrong. Sometimes you even blame me for everything that’s happened.


Not so.


Think of it this way.
It’s like we’ve walked along a beach together and when you look back you see two sets of footprints in some places, but only one set at others’ when you were at your worst.

You ask, “Did you carry me through that and make me do those awful things?”

No, you miserable fucking coward.


You carried me.



You couldn’t take another step without bringing me along, so you could say, “The Devil made me do it.”




All I did was talk.

It’s okay. I forgive you.
I’ll always forgive you

- nWoD: Inferno 

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Posted 5 months ago
motion-of-the-stars: Moments of Eternity by www.lichtjahre.eu on Flickr.

motion-of-the-stars:

Moments of Eternity by www.lichtjahre.eu on Flickr.

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Posted 5 months ago

Fearbreaking weekend - Day 4, Sunday:

It was very cold out, I was shaking.. I warmed up and got my mind ready, but I just couldn’t… I never have been confident about my sideflips.. It was too difficult.. I am really upset and disappointed in myself. I have no one else to blame.. I stood there so long I realized that I couldn’t even backflip correctly.. I might just cry, what a waste of a perfect weekend..

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landscapelifescape:  Panda Baby 1642 by Sooper-Deviant  *Asplodes from cuteness* Zoom

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 Panda Baby 1642 by Sooper-Deviant 

*Asplodes from cuteness*

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Posted 5 months ago
Thanks Jake. I really do think this major choice is right for me.
sohappyicd asked

I have some book recommendations, I’ll try to find them for you. They are pretty interesting and are in your area of study.

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Posted 5 months ago

Fearbreaker weekend - Pre-day 4, Sunday

This day is devoted to more fear-breaking. That means sideflips from heights on concrete, frontflips on concrete, and that goddamned rail precision… Everything should go well. I am very fortunate to not have any injuries, but that is because I refused to fail. I’ll be training with 2 other mates of mine, hopefully they will do something that scares them.